Seedust

The general male predecessors would loved to have designed the blueprint of woman’s future evolution. If it was up to them, only two types of women would circle their lives: the reproductive thoroughbreds and the erotic outcasts.

I’m no expert, but have to question how women will leverage in the men’s world.

- Prochoice, independence, freedom of life style, and lesbianism after menopause will be more prevalent and acted upon as economic independence within women plays a major role.

- Through evolution, women are gaining more competitiveness, strength, aggression, and dominance. At some point, our wakeup call will allow us to bypass mating, submissiveness, and lean towards independent reproduction. At the age of 45 women won’t need to haunt down online dating to find the future father of your unborn baby. Their fertility will be readily available with no consequences or connection to the sperm donors.

In this era, more women will reproduce without having to walk down the isle and she will not be allowed to looked down upon or pittied. The roles will reverse, where the traditional gal will be questioned for her compromising submissiveness and ignorance.

Continued from Deliberation of Lies.

Dishonest folks remain holding the broom to sweep…

Dishonesty comes in many forms, but despite the reasons or levels they are still in the same classification of deceit in my view. Having said so, I’ve experienced many fictional tales from various people throughout my life.. The most ridiculous ones, just to name a few: a day of Bergdorf Goodman’s spa mellow drama, obtaining the Dyson vacuum cleaner, fluency in Chinese, attending predominately Black college in Maryland, hurting someone, and so on… My mind used to spin like a whirlpool with an upset stomach when finding out the people whom I loyally trusted turns out to be nothing but charlatans traveling barefoot with the gypsies.

It’s become a modern trend to thread aggressively contrive and dishonest manipulation are the key to success nowadays…. But how far will they succeed before people will pull away and really question the shysters that are as transparent as a candy glass? People see through you better than you see yourself. When it’s said and done, these people are dealt by others not by respect or choice, but out of obligation or commitment, and nothing more. I was in a conflicted friendship for many years out of loyalty, until the person’s lies became very apparent and beneath my tolerance.

One would assume the natural course of redemption in the aftermath of a painful deceit is to tell be forthright and admit to wrong doing. Easier said than done… Many tend to sway from the truth, deny or even put the blame on others. My favorite line is, “you made me tell a lie”.. I consider it a disability that injects pain and confusion to people, especially loved ones, around them.

So it’s a no wonder why people who take accountability for their own actions with honesty are respected and redeemed.

As if they made a pack with the devil that they will never honor the meaning of accountability or honesty…

So the awakening at the age of 40 is a filteration and transitioning towards a new evolution:

#1, I detest kissing of the ass or manipulation because it goes against my personality and ethics (I would do so poorly being a realtor). It’s an endless game for the likes of gypsies who keep running away from the reflection of self.

#2, I filtered out the superficial contacts and kept the meaningful people around me, give or take. This by far was a difficult transition as Virgos like myself do not adapt to ‘change’ too easily. It should be considered a transitional rehab and I do not look forward to a repeat.

#3, This allowed me to steer towards a better confidence in trying new things in life without caring what people thought nor seeking anyone’s approval. I no longer had to put up with a largely rear-ended social climber who chuckled & snickered when finding out meditation was on my weekly calendar. ONG NAMO, GURU DEV NAMO! Ahhh….

#4, As if I was in a long coma and woke up to realize that some people were not who I thought I knew. Discard.

#5, The awakening meant a handful of my old perceptions was somewhat warped and those challenges had to either be dealt with or tossed aside as a ‘defect’ when it aimed at my direction. I had no tolerance or patience but to confront it bluntly when messed with.

#6, Along the way I had to change my ways and stop barking at the wrong tree that was beyond pointless. The bigger challenge here was being accountable for my own actions and choices.

#7, My mother and my OBGYN of fifteen years still live in their delusion that I should bear a third child before I get too old. And believe you me, an aging asian being pregnant and 55 pounds over weight does not institute a pretty canvas in my visual thoughts. So next time I go in for an annual checkup, I will request getting my tubes tied just to startle him.

#8, That my mother deserves all the love and gratitude more than anything.

#9, That I am a supportive and loving mother to my two children, and every now and then I may make mistakes but it’s not the end of the world.

“Jenny, where is my Mr. Right? I know he’s out there somewhere”.

Hate to break the news but the chances of meeting Mister He Is The Guy are very slim. If you are in your mid-thirties and older, the Mr Right has gone fishing for a younger gal with real perky boobs. Even for men in their forties will generally steer towards younger women who have never been married – young and fresh. Hey, that’s how I select my fish and meat the produce counter, wouldn’t you?

Let’s put it this way, you get divorced for liberation and .happiness… Well the statistics have shown there is no future for most of us after that. If anything, we’re doing our ex-husbands the favor because they will go out there and get hitched immediately, faster than you getting asked out on a first date since

Secondly, there is no Mr. Better out there. If there are, those guys are trying to sexting a gal with real perky boobs right now… So let’s set the record, you are better off staying with your current one, ugly or not.

Dearly beloved, we are gathered here in the sign of God’s Seeds and in the face of this family – to join together this baby and this •mother in holy birth, which is commended to be a •ªmandate and •necessity among all women: and therefore – is not by any – to be •neglected or ignored – but •advised, etc, etc, etc. Into this holy estate these two humans present now come to be locked together. They cannot speak now and forever hold their •bound.

Birthing is the union of mother and child in soul, •utero and love. It is expected for the mutual •overwhelming and painful joy – and for the helpless and nervousness give on another in nurturing and adversity. But more importantly – it is advised and expected through which a selfless and more selfless environment may be provided by the mother.

Through birthing, Nancy a make a life long commitment to face harsh disappointments – trash her dreams – pray her hopes – and accept her child’s imperfections. Mark Jr. will promise his mother to follow his mother’s ideals throughout their lives together – through force understanding – guilt – and exhaustions from one another.

We are here today – before god – because birthing is one of his most sacred but painful idea – to witness the natural vaginal birthing of Anthony Jr. This occasion markes the celebration of a life long journey together. And now, through me – He joins you together forever and will never leave your sight, never.

Do you Nancy, take Anthony Jr to be your child – to live together after Godi’s ordinance – in the holy estate of geneology? Will you loe him, feed him, discipline him, keep and pay for him, in sickness and in premature sex, for richer or for food stamps, for sanity, for suicidal, in frustration and in relief, to

Do you Anthony Jr. take Nancy to be your mother – to put up with her, in the holy estate of not being able to choose your mother? Will you accept her, obey her rules, honor her shortcomings, stay with her, and not run away, in sickness and aging health, take care of her, never abandon her, for inheretance or nothing at all, in to cherish and be patient with her

Besides, if you feel this way, then obviously you didn’t vote for Hilary in 2008.

All these women have shown an immense amount of courage and devotion in dealing with unforeseen circumstances. You seem too quick to dismiss the integrity that’s often washed and diluted for women who were bystanders of infidelity, the same women who then have to assist not only themselves but guide their unfaithful husbands back reality, whatever that may be. No one is impressed by infidelity….

Hillary had a more advanced position in a law firm than Bill did back in the days. But it was the duty of women’s tradition that kept her from pursuing her dream, therefore anchored herself in Bill’s shadow in the White House. Clearly, Hillary and Elizabeth had different goals and professional agendas, hence Elizabeth is paving her ways now, slowly.

Older women. I’ve come to realize long ago that I relate to them better than peers who are my age. As a child, I used to spend many days hanging out with our housekeepers, my older sisters, my dear mother, aunts.

Three of my best friends are a decade senior. But I relate to them like they’re my soulful sisters.

They are full of grace, wisdom, with so much awareness and insight about life than most women in their late 30′s and early 40′s. But what I appreciate most is their simplicity, appreciation for others and none competitiveness. They build me up, they bring out who I really am.

Now this is not to say all ladies who’s had menopause are Lady Yodas… Believe me, there are a lot of childish and competitive geriatrics out there,

I never imagined what my mother would be like at the age of 75. I never thought she would be so beautiful.

My mother had a devastating childhood during the Korean War, and again when she was in her mid-40′s to 50′s she endured 2 decades of my father and his illness. With it came depression, raising five children and the struggles of nursing a patient. But through thick and thin, my mother always retained her patience, understanding and devotion to her family more than anyone else I knew.

What kept my mother sane before and after my father’s passing was her faith in God and accepting her life as a whole. She he found herself again with all the grace, peacefulness,

My mother and I are 35 years a part, and that’s a very big generation gap, not to mention our cultural and religious differences. However, my mother is my only salvation next to my children. I think of her as the other half of me.

I love her, not for all the obvious reasons, but I love her even more because of her wise selflessness. She allows me to see my shortcomings, my weaknesses. She guides me to see the goodness in my worst enemies, she encourages me to walk in other people’s shoes.

My mother have embraced the poor, uneducated and the elitist, equally and fairly. She was never the competitor or aggressor, because would always allow others to speak

I’ve witnessed a number of aging ladies with much contempt, jealousy and denial. Long time ago, someone arrogantly commented that my mother appeared too old for her age. I seriously wanted to heave at this person but contained myself. I came to realize my mother was the slow and wise tortoise who won the race because the arrogant and impatient hare foolishly fell asleep . We all know who the winner is in this story.

The fact that I can sit here and gush about my dear mother makes me very proud to be her daughter.

Speaking of which, I must call her now.

Forget the marriage vow, been pointless to 50% of couples… But “Till death due us apart”, is profoundly certifiable the second you give birth to a child, till you die…

Shouldn’t there be a new Birthing Vow? A vow induction right in the delivery room: “You and the baby will be bound and woven together through fatigue, tears, trial and error, love and commitment, until death do you guys a part. Neither of you can leave or stray one another, or you will be convicted of neglect or run-away and be penalized to shame by society.

My third sister once said, ‘you are not a woman until you bear a child of your own’… This was over a decade ago, when her girls were in PreK and fixated on Barney. It’s a bold statement and heavily debatable in the 21st century where women have paved the way for equality, respect (some are still pole dancing, nevertheless) and some choosing not to have a family.

But all due respect, the ontonomy of producing a human in itself is so sacred and profound….  endure child birth, sleep deprivation, teenage tantrums, demands and spit-table attitudes… So we should honor this ‘I am a woman’ theory 110%, oui? But at what cost?  Is the life long sacrifice and selflessness worth the trouble? If some of you said no, then that’s the right answer too.

I would never trade my two children for anything in the world. Nonetheless, I can totally respect those who choose to be childless. One day when my daughter is a mature adult she should weigh the option of adopting, birthing or none of the above, as her three choices.

To tell you the truth, I can honestly say 99 percent of the mothers have felt envious of a childless women more than once.

, worries, frequent anxieties, and more worries that mothers have for their children doesn’t stop when they go off to college. It doesn’t slow down when they get married and start a family wither. The marriage vow of ‘Death Due Us Apart’ is a joke compared to we are doomed till our death… We almost lose sight of our own selves in order to polish and nurture our own children till death due us apart… How exhausting….

A month after I had give birth to our daughter, I called up my three sisters up and demanded the truth about the absolute truth of motherhood.  Their responses were. “If we told you how hard it is, you would never have children”.  MURDERERS!

I say it’s okay not to bear children. It’s far from a crime or

The truth is that no ‘gay’ gene has been found

A more significant truth is that all human males have a female X
chromosome in addition to a male Y chromosome and the relative
contributions from each may vary from one person to another.

However another factor behind male homosexuality may be the following.

Human babies and children require a great deal of looking after, so
its helpful for a mother to have a grandmother or two around to give a
hand.

This would have been particularly so in precivilised times when there
were no modern amenities.

Now, if grandmothers got pregnant they would be too busy with their
own babies to help young mothers, so the process of evolution has led
to human females having a menopause which makes them infertile. This
ensures grandmothers can be available to help mothers rear children
into strong and well trained young adults. This has helped human
societies survive, but as a side effect of menopause, by middle age,
66% percent of women lose interest in sex.

That means that if all men were heterosexual, the total number of men
who would want to have sex with women would be much greater than the
number of women who would be available.

In precivilized lawless times this would have lead to conflict between
males fighting over females and also to frequent rape of females. Such
internal conflict would have reduced the ability of precivilized
communities to survive.

Consequently, precivilized communities that compensated for lack of
sexually active females by having a proportion of homosexual males
would suffer less internal conflict and for that reason would probably
have been more successful at surviving than those that included no
homosexual males.

If this were the case, then the fractious communities without
homosexuals would have slowly died out while the more harmonious
communities, with homosexuals, would have grown and multiplied.

So, according to the above explanation, male homosexuality compensates
for the loss of sexually active women caused by menopause.